i hate how they take advantage of me because they know i would do anything for them.

Miss na miss na kita Ma. Lalo pa malapit na ang 1st Death Anniversary mo. Sana mabuti din ang sitwasyon niyo ngayong magkasama na kayo ni Papa. Pangako po na titibayan ko para sa mga kapatid ko, sa pamilya ko lalo na sa apo niyo na si Arendelle. Mahal na mahal ko kayo…

in the words of Jack Twist— “ I wish I knew how to quit you. “

I think i never healed my abandonment issues. Maybe I keep silence about but everytime someone enter the wall I build i always leave first. I don't think i can love anyone because of this trauma i never ask for.

its scares me to tell people that i stopped, nakakatakot ipaalam sakanila na tumigil ako, hindi dahil nahihiya ako or what, pero siguro oo? pero mas nakakatakot kasi baka kapag sinabi kong i needed it, hindi nila magets, isipin nila nagdadahilan lang ako. i just told my cousin that i stopped, i never really tell others about it, not bc i was ashamed, more of because i wanna sit with my decision muna and i dont feel comfy din letting others know, maybe bc im still burdened by the expectations, by all the couldve been that theyll tell me, pero dedma haha. everythng you lose is a step you take.

stop trying to keep me alive, stop being selfish. everyday i’m suffering and i just need peace but you’re too selfish to let me. i will never, ever find peace as long as im breathing. it’s just a part of the disease. and i want to die.

I wish I could tell my little sister how much I loved her, and how it’s not fair she left me alone in life. I don’t understand death. Im so angry with her for choosing to leave me, but I feel guilty for being mad. My heart hurts

I loved you for 5 years and now I wish I never did.

To my boyfriend, I love you, so much that I am scared that one day you will just slip away from my arms.

He battling with cancer right now, the only best thing that i can do is to support him to his ups and downs. I’m afraid that i may lose him, but i know that God won’t let that happen.

i hate that i need to put up a facade that i am a bad person to appear strong because i used to experience bullying and hatred from people.

I hope someone sees me as someone worth loving.

i wish i wasn't so desperate for love. then, i wouldn't have had to give my heart for someone that can't cherish it as eagerly as i do for theirs.

I expected a lot for my 17th birthday (01-30-2023), but when the day came, I had to take care of my mom because she was sick and my dad was working in his car so I was alone the whole day, even my best friend forgot about my bday. It was the same as every other birthday but what still hurts about that day is the fact that the only message that I received in the whole day was about my 8 y/o nephew. He had leukemia, and the message said that he was in his last days and that he was probably dying in the same day. He didn't. He died just five days later, but the fact that I wasn't there for him still haunts me till this day.

I always have the thought of ending it all in the back of my mind. I missed having parents. I am yearning for a child that I never had the chance to carry in my arms. I am grieving for the me that just wanted to be happy and get treated right. I know I could be happier than this. I am so tired of asking for the bare minimum.

Im here to prove them that whatever u face will end in the mean time

Can I just say na mahal na mahal ko yung girlfriend ko. Sobra excited na akong tumanda kami nang magkasama. Excited ako sa lahat ng bagay

i really wanted that job badly. i may act im fine but im not

am i selfish if i choose to work abroad and leave my family here?

how ironic life is, i heard my uncle's talking about my papa, he was a good man..they idolize my papa who's now in jail because of dr*gs

i lost myself when i was sexually assaulted at 16. now i’m 20 and i don’t know how to get over it.

"I need the saving." something I would never admit to someone

i am tired of carrying these burdens alone. i wish someone would willingly take them off my shoulders.

I just told him that I wish I could still go back in time when we were not together yet, because I was happier by myself back then. I don't know if it's too selfish of me to be completely honest about my feelings.

To the Little Girl(s) who were groomed, (by you) Please know that what you’re feeling is normal. It’s okay to speak up. It’s okay to think that something is wrong. That means something is wrong. I love you and I’m sorry HE(THEY) took your innocence away from you. You were an innocent little girl - that’s why they went after you. You are beautiful and kind and everything that they say you are not. Do not listen to the voices in your head that say, “this is okay this is normal this is what LOVE IS LIKE.” Love is not painful. Love does not hurt. Love is all encompassing and Love is healing. Don’t isolate yourself - let those around you love on you, so that you may grow and love yourself. You are beautiful and You are kind. You didn’t deserve what happened to you. Your innocence was violently ripped apart and your heart torn to bits. Your loved ones will help you heal. They will love you even when you believe you are broken. You are never broken - You are strong. You deserve to have a healthy love and you deserve to fall in love with life. -A 24 year old whose innocence was stolen at the age of 11

Hindi ko palang kailangan ng tao para mahanap ang sarili ko. Hindi ko din alam pano hanapin ang sarili ko. Feels like im lost in a woods. How to get out?

I have to learn to stop loving you.

it’s been 8 months and i still imagine the warmth of your embrace every time i’m sad, and the soft beating of your heart when i try to fall asleep alone.

Im tired of all of this is wish everything will be OK :>>>

here’s what i’m thinking, i respect what you think of yourself because you know yourself better, you do you. but i think that you don’t have an avoidant attachment, you are not one of a kind of those attachers, you just simply can’t reciprocate what i feel toward you and that’s totally fine. now, this is what i’ve learned lately—i realized that i’m one of those anxious attachers and i’ve realized too that i might been draining myself for chasing you and doing everything that i can to make you feel lovable, enough, suffice or whatever just to make you stay, or i might been draining you for chasing you either, i’ve been overthinking that you might be creating reasons just to push me away, that’s just my thinking but i don’t really want to believe what i think. in addition, i’ve read this somewhere that we need to remember that sometimes we don’t respect other’s boundaries by expecting an exuberant amount of soothing and reassurance which isn’t sustainable or fair on the other person, which is very true and i couldn’t agree more. i can feel people pulling away from me because of my anxious attachment style where i take everything personally and imagine the worst case scenario in every little thing. i wouldn’t either if i were to date somebody with an anxious attachment style.

Little me would have never imagined that all I could ever want now, all grown up, is just a hug from my Dad. He passed away almost 2 years ago.

I’m tired of constantly being told to “be mentally tough.” I’ve pushed myself to endure everything for so long that I didn’t even realize I was already invalidating my own feelings. Now, all that suppressed exhaustion and pain is catching up to me, and it’s affecting me both mentally and physically.

I hate grieving but sometimes I am afraid if I stop, you will be left behind in the past

Tick Tock. Tick Tock. Tick Tock. I prayed to God that when I never find true love, I will ligate at the age of 27 to end our bloodline. I prayed to God to take my life away at the age of 30. When I'm still stuck here in this cage. When I'm still suffocated from their grip because of their fear of my future just to control me. I want to be free. To end my story early. To end everything and just rest forever. Maybe then, I will get to create my own life that I've always wanted in the afterlife. To be happy and to truly find my true love. Myself... But I couldn't help but to think that it's better to die younger than die older. Not because dying younger is a beauty. But dying younger not to reopen wounds, add more scars, and suffer more in this cruel world filled with unexpected things and broken promises. Dying younger is better than dying older. It's just... it is. I hope you don't have these thoughts the same way as I have. Tick Tock. Tick Tock. Tick Tock.

" I saved myself then and I'll save myself now but sometimes I wonder what it's like to be saved "

If I could do it over again I wouldn’t be as apologetic. I came to you with a problem that I wanted you to apologise for because you hurt me and you still found a way for me to be the bad guy. I don’t know how I ended up being the one asking for forgiveness or what I was seeking forgiveness for, but a small part of me always knew it would end that way. I just wish you hadn’t taken my dignity with you.

My grandma’s been gone for almost a year now. I still feel immense guilt for not going over to her house to help with my cousins a week before she was hospitalized. I never got to hear her voice again. The last time I saw her she was hooked up to so many machines that she could only listen. I should’ve been there for her more. I hope she knows how much I love and cherish her. Always thinking of her🩷

i would rather die remembering the things I shouldn’t than remember none of them at all

i hope in another life i already know what i really want to pursue.

I just want someone to tell me that there's is nothing wrong with me if it hurts.

I wonder if I could ever be lonelier than this

i wish i wasn’t a horrible person who is mentally unstable. mood disorders suck

I mastered saving people with a smile, while silently bleeding like shattered glass no one ever thought to pick up.

I’m afraid I'm just a potential. 

I don't know if I have the strength to keep going. I don't want to disappoint anybody but my body and mind are tired and I feel hopeless about my future

unfortunately, i'll always feel guilty for choosing myself

I wonder if I will ever get the love that I have been longing

Conditions! Who says women are loved unconditionally! I mean there might be some lucky ones, But what about women like me, Who are questioned every time. No body really wants to see who am I in reality, all their interest lies in what can I offer. It’s never about the heart and values I hold But the body and it’s shape, can I change? They question? Of course I can But is it the only thing that defines me? I asked I mean of course I can change, but I will be the same who I am. And if you didn’t like it before, how will you like it after? The journey from self love to self doubt to recovery was hard I look up again and the conditions are still there! I feel like trapped in a cage! As the game of their words never fades. - Surbhi</3

Dear stranger, I hope life becomes softer on the parts of you that nobody knows are hurting. 💗🩹

bakit sobrang hirap maging mahirap? grabe yung pressure na nakukuha kapag sinasabing "ikaw ang pag asa namin sa kahirapan" pero ang totoo, takot ako. takot akong mag fail na baka sakaling maging mali din ang expectations nila sakin

Since we broke up I have thought about you every single day. I don’t know that I’ll ever be able to love somebody the way I loved you, even though I’m in a happy relationship it’s just not you. It’s like I left everything I had with you and I’ll never be able to get it back. I hope we can reconnect one day and smile at each other again.

just hold on, stranger! u gonna do big things :)

I'm exploring, I'm learning, I'm loving life again.

Being a parent is a whole lot of different struggle than just when it was myself. Dont get me wrong i love my kids so much. I just wish i was more whole. No one really prepares you to be a parent. And I believe that when i was drowning, God gave me a reason to live.

There’s something comforting and genuine about having a coach who truly understands and believes in you. I may not say it often, but I deeply admire the way he helps people face their fears, including myself.

WHY IS LIFE SOOOO HARDDDDD

bday ko ngayon hahahaha pero parang wala lang. walang pera pang handa, wala ring bumabating friends ko. gusto ko sana magpost ng picture ko na pinaghandaan ko pang bday kaso natatakot lang ako na totoong mangyari na wala talagang nakaalala sa special day ko. baka kung di dahil sa post ko, di nila maaalala.

I'm sorry if I wasn't able to give you my best, when you were able to give yours.

I want to say so many things that I don't know where to start.

i wish my grandad never killed himself. i wish my mom never got depressed. i wish i never had to see my mom attempt suicide. i wish i never had to parent myself cause my mom was too depressed to show up for me because my grandad killed himself. i wish i wasn't angry at him. i wish i wasn't scared i'm gonna have the same faith as he did. but it i'm honest i don't know who i would be without all the pain so maybe the only thing i wish is that my mom never had to feel the pain she did.

Fantasy ko today ay makasal sa Minor Basilica of San Sebastian in my early 30's nang walang nakakaalam tapos yung wedding photoshoot namin magaganap sa Binondo(Wong Kar Wai inspired)tapos iaannounce lang namin yung kasal after three months kasi mag hohoneymoon kami dalawang buwan sa mga bansang pinangarap lang namin puntahan before.

I hate that there’s too many things that have gone wrong in my life to the point we’re half of it doesn’t even feel important. It’s like I have a thousand little puzzle pieces to different puzzles and it’s still not enough. I just wish I could disappear.

i don’t know how to let go of you without hoping you’ll come back

I hate the word “hate” but I truly hate you from taking a part of me. For living your life unaffected and leaving me with this trauma to work through

I was hurting, but i acted like it was nothing to me. But it's really painful that i felt like i died again and again. I felt so empty.

I’m sorry I hurt you so much I just didn’t know how to love myself first

I have held this huge overbearing weight on my back for so long that says I will never be good enough ever since you walked out on my life. As the person who brought me into this life, it was supposed to be you’re top priority. Seeking validation from everyone that walked into my life has overtaken me. It has become me and it has made me the people pleaser I am. Yet, despite the self-sabotaging people pleasing, I can never feel satisfied and I can never feel good enough because I unconsciously engraved in my brain that I never will be good enough. Never good enough… because the person who brought me into this world walked out of mine so easily.

I have always believe in you ever since we were kids. You've always been special. Not everyone is going to hurt you and leave, learn to embrace your vulnerability too. Even if you pushed me away, I will still be here to support you from the distance. Wala ka nang kailangan patunayan, Dom. You're doing well. Hope you get your fuel back. Cant wait to see you ignite once again. 🤍

nakakatakot na hindi ako kamahal mahal

I love you. Not the same way I did, and you treated me poorly at some points, but I still do. You taught me so much, and I wish I could tell you how grateful I am for you, but I can’t. You’re no longer a major part my life, but you will always be a part of my heart.

I wish I could forget how much "home" it felt your smell.

i wish i could tell you how much i hate this feeling.

Dear Geloy, My uncle killed himself 2 months ago. I'm severely suicidal with multiple attempts under my belt, and remember sitting down with my aunt and family the day it happened and listening to them talk. I can't help but wonder what they are going to say about me at the table when it's my time to go too. I'm sorry uncle Jim, I miss you and I love you. See you soon.

Hey...!! Mi Vida i still love you even though you hurt me

maybe it is better to stay silent

I always make them feel included, for them to know that they're important. But why do I feel like I am the who does not belong?

I cant even remember what it was like to love you, all i remember is that i loved you so much

i wish you knew how much i liked you, even when i hated you all the same. i know you must think of me as a 'sister', but i knew you felt something more than that when we opened up to one another. i know you still like her, and i could've been selfish enough to make you mine. but i like you; and i chose not to have you for myself. because i could never compete with a girl you already love since day one. so, i hope you get the fries you wanted :) i hope you're happy with her.

Hindi pa po ako sure sa identity ko. Pero alam ko na tao ako.

Why did everyone have to do that stuff behind my back and it took me years to realize it

I feel bittersweet looking at you now that we are older. You were once the guy I wanted to have a future with, but the reality of being out of your league scared me. I left. I’m sorry. Years have passed, I still look and consider you my first love.

I wish you would just sit down and listen to me. I wish you just understand that you’ve hurt me all these years and accept it. Please.

your true colors are revealing itself. You aren’t as good of a person as I thought, why did I ever trust you

gustong gusto ko na magmahal, at mahalin din.

I hate that so many people have hurt me the exact way they said they wouldn't.

I know you don't love me and that you'll never love me but I don't want you to leave my life even though it hurts me, I love you

I don't care how much God claims to love me, younger me did not deserve everything I was put through.

Dear Geloy, I used to be so afraid that someone might know what happened when I was 8 yrs old. I was sexually harrassed by my brother’s friend. No one knew. I was scared because he told me he will kill me if I tell anyone. I was just 8, Geloy. Growing up, I avoided any topic about sex or reproduction but now, I am trying to live a normal teenage life. I am already 19, I’ve forgiven him for myself because I want to heal but I still cry over it. It still hunts me. If only I could hug the kid I once was… I still wait for the apology I know I will never get even tho I have forgiven him already. I wonder if he even wish “I hope she knows I regret what I have done”. 8 yrs old…I was so young and innocent, I wish I have told my parents about it, maybe it wouldnt be this heavy, I wouldnt need to carry it growing up. I wouldnt have to heal all alone. I wish I have told my mom about it.

I’m tired of people making mental illness their defining personality trait.

I feel like my teenage insecurities reincarnated noong nagkaroon ng pageant dito sa University namin noong nagkaroon ng fair dito katatapos ko lang sa OJT ko noon at noong sumama ako sa Grand parade bilang simula ng university fair namin nakita ko yung mga pambato ng mga iba't ibang College departments kasama na dun yung sa amin--- nung nakita ko sila ang gwapo at ang gaganda nila. Pakiramdam ko nanliit ako noong nakita ko sila --- hindi dahil gusto kong sumali sa mga pageant -- ayoko -- kung hindi sa kadahilanang inaamin ako na kinompara ko yung sarili ko sa kanila --- bakit kaya hindi ako kasing gwapo nung mga lalaking kasali dun --- ampuputi ang kikinis nila o kahit Moreno yung ibang contestant dun ang gwapo pa din --- feeling ko pag tumabi sila sa akin gagwapo sila lalo dahil sa itsura ko --- kaya inaamin ko rin na hindi ko maiwasang mapatingin sa social media accounts nila kumbaga napunta ako doomscrolling dahil dun --- ang sakit-sakit lang kasi maramdaman na naiinggit ako hindi dahil gusto silang siraan kung hindi dahil hindi ko maiwasang maikompara ang itsura ko sa kanilang lahat --- sa lahat ng lugar dun pa talaga sa event na yun --- I was admiring all of them from afar I was mesmerized by their looks --- little did I know that my insecurities returned when I already dumped it when I was 15,16 or 17 years old now that I am in my 20s and in college as well.

I lost myself when I lost him

Dear Geloy, I’ve been following your project for the longest time. I’ve grown older, and it brings be great comfort reading messages that make me feel not so alone. I am so so so tired. It’s so hard to go on. This isn’t a cry for help. Rather, I don’t know what to do anymore. Nothing seems to be going right and I’m so tired. I feel like everybody hates me. Why is it so hard to get someone to care? Am I that worthless? I’m struggling to understand what’s my depression and what’s real. I wish I didn’t exist. I wish I was loved. Thanks for listening.

I said i’m fine because i already forgave… but i never ever forget.

you’re starting to feel like a figment of my imagination. it’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that you exist. that you were real, you were here. that i’ve touched you. the only proof i didn’t make you up in my head is all the pain and emptiness for you that still sits in me. i miss you.

I feel like you’re staying because I’m the convenient option

you are a narcissist, a self centered, and a hypocrite b—it disgusts me :)

my life’s purpose had become to prove to myself that i’m not a waste of space

im so inlove with sadness i became a friend to it

thank you for being so patient with me. i hope you noticed that i hugged you a few seconds longer this time

It’s not that I want pain; it’s that I feel as if I deserve pain.

i would rather die remembering the things I shouldn’t than remember none of them at all

nakakahiya ako

I thought we shared something special, something that can never be broken— turns out it was just me ;)) right mike?

Im sorry, my efforts aren't enough for you

he went from the one i love and my best friend to someone i don’t even talk to in one day. and that sucks

i never really knew how to say this to you but i’m sorry for all the things i did. i hurt you, and i know you can never forgive me, but you still are in my dreams. and sometimes i still hope i’m in yours too.

I yearn for loving. No, not love, but loving. Loving is so inherent to me, I don’t care what my past experiences are, those who stay, I will continue to love, without anything in return. It’s just how I was built. As long as you are with me, as long as you don’t give me a reason not to, as long as you let me, I. WILL. LOVE. because that’s just who I am.

I wish I never became a mother lately. My four year old has drained me so completely.

sobrang pagod na ko :<< gusto ko nalang tapusin lahat ‘to

I cringe at the thought of previous versions of myself

Thank you for being the kind of account that reminds people every day to keep going, even when life gets heavy. 🤍

i still think of you every night.

I don’t regret standing up for myself & saying how I felt. But sometimes, in my weaker moments, I regret that it changed so much between us.

I’m tired of trying to make everyone happy

I wish my parents broke up. My dad was horrible.

I’ve become nothing. I am afraid to accept that this is my reality and to that I am alone. I'm afraid to accept that I'm not important. I don't feel like anything matters anymore. I just want all the pain to end.

I hate and will hate you for the rest of my life for wanting to reconcile with the person who SA'd me

I’ve attached two notes if that’s alright: “I wish I died in that car accident. I’m angry I’m still alive.” “I like you, I miss you, I look for you in others, my parents always fought, my mother wishes for a different daughter, I was never taught how to love, I feel fundamentally broken. I’m sorry for always running away, but I do it because you deserve better.”

I wish to find people who I can truly connect with, who understand me and vice-versa. Sometimes it seems impossible because of the state the world is in, but I haven't given up hope.

I feel bad for little me, she was just a girl and had to survive his drinking problem. Now she's a woman too broken and tired to keep fighting back... I wish i could've given us both a better life but we never stood a chance in this household, we still don't.

sometimes i wish i dont have to carry the emotional burden in every relationship that i am in.

Some nights I look at the glow in the dark stars on my ceiling and am afraid of dying in my sleep.

you have no idea how much of myself i had to rebuild after our breakup. all you did was take. you ruined me when all i ever did was to protect you and not make you doubt my love for you.

he was the right person, but it was the wrong time. we were both young and immature. a year later, and now i sit here grieving his passing without ever expressing my feelings. it hurts that he’s gone. it hurts that we never said goodbye. and it hurts that i don’t have the courage to talk to anyone about my pain.

is it selfish if i put an end to all? :) i understand the big impact to people after but how about me? what about me? :)

I stopped asking, 'Why is this happening to me?' and started asking, 'What is this teaching me?'

I’m worried about my future. Kung hanggang saan lang ba ako, kung hanggang dito lang ba ako or magiging okay rin naman at makakatulong sa parents? Nakaka-pressure knowing ikaw yung eldest sa family :(

i have faced so much, do i not deserve kindness? do i not deserve a modicum of soft reprieve?

I hate how we were limited to a few places where our love can exist.

I'm afraid of moving on for the greater good and what's scary is that I don't even know why I feel guilty for doing so.

It feels almost impossible and not worth living most times bc I just constantly feel like I’m struggling one way or the other. Not that I wanna kill myself, sometimes it’s just like “what’s the point in living in constant struggle like this?” I constantly feel lost and doubt about myself. I just wish life wasn’t like this. I wish I could say even as a kid I didn’t feel like this but I have. I just want to feel…content for once in my life. Fully content.

sa’yo lang ang pagmamahal ko at itataya ko itong aking pag-ibig kahit anong mangyari

I don't wanna love u but im too full of love

my hyper-independence stems from my childhood trauma and it has become so bad that I struggle to make and maintain relationships.

kung tatanungin ako kung ano gusto ko paglaki noong bata ako, ang isasagot ko ay wala. wala akong maalala. kaya siguro hindi malinaw kung saan ako tutungo ngayon kase bata palang ako ay hindi ko na alam. ewan, tama ba ‘tong sinasabi ko? hindi ko alam. ang alam ko lang ay ok ako ngayon, sa ngayon. pero sa loob loob ko, parang di ako makagalaw, para akong nasa gitna ng isang kwarto na walang laman. walang pintuan. ‘di ako makalabas, ang nararamdaman ko lang ay ang pitik ng puso ko na siyang tanging nagpapaalala saakin na buhay ako.

I used to have so much love and life in me. Y'all took it

maybe it was my fault for letting myself fall too hard. i never knew i'd long for you.

I think everyone should go through cancer once in their life Yep, i said it earlier while pouring my thoughts out to my boyfriend I had leukemia. Fou years of chemo and lately life has been so loud and chaotic that i caught myself thinking about those days again - being stuck in a hospital bed, waiting for my family to feed me, bathe me, take care of me. Completely dependent on them And i know how selfish that sounds Coz back then, while i was going through cancer, the only thing on my plate was getting better. That’s it.. My family carried everything else for me. They were the ones fighting beside me in ways i probably still can’t fully understand Now life is different. I have two jobs, i went back to college, i live alone, and i still go to monthly checkups. Everything feels fast all the time and some days it gets heavy in a way i don’t really know how to explain So when i think about that hospital bed, i don’t miss the cancer itself. I miss the pause. The simplicity of only having one job- survive the day. No pressure to figure out the future. No pretending to have everything together I’ll always be grateful i made it through but surviving cancer doesn’t mean life suddenly becomes easier after. Sometimes it just changes the kind of tired you carry

I love you. You are my hero.

i wanted you to tell me—and actually mean it—that you got us. that when i was breaking up with you and telling you how drained i was, you’d have said you can carry us out of it while i pick myself up.

i feel like trusting someone is giving them permission to hurt you

It’s so hard to fixed and regain what lost something in myself after u left

It's funny how it's called humanity yet rarely found in humans

It feels like I’ve been begging for the bare minimum in every relationship I’ve ever been in. I’m starting to worry I’m always going to be more in love with them than they are with me.

i miss u

I hope one day I can say I’ve healed from the things that quietly broke me that the past no longer aches within me, and that the pain I carried never became the making of who I am. I hope I become someone who can look back without falling apart, and move forward without the weight of old wounds following me everywhere.

You were there when i needed you, But i wasnt there at all when you needed me.

Hi Geloy, I’m 21 years old and I got sober from drugs last year. my childhood friends and the boy I love are still struggling with getting clean. I feel so guilty for managing to get this far. Every time I achieve something it’s clouded by the feeling that I don’t deserve it while the people I love are still in pain. I feel like I should still be struggling with them. It feels wrong to be happy. Everytime I hear someone has ODed I think “why them and not me. I used more. I used longer” i can’t help but stay in contact with them so I can make sure they are okay and alive even though I know it hinders my growth. I know what it’s like to be where they are and I desperately want to show them sobriety brings you true peace. It is soul shattering watching them and being helpless. I can’t stand knowing they are so alone on the streets. Sometimes the pain is so unbearable I want to give up and go back to drugs and be with them again.

I wish we could talk more, but I'm afraid you don't want to

I cant help but cry everytime i talk to my sister. Shes the most precious human I’ve ever met i love her so much that i cant stand the thought that she could be upset about anything.

I'm always the one who ends up sacrificing for others. Everytime i have to be the one to let go of someone or something. I hate this. But i can't help it, I'd rather be in pain,than let someone else feel hurt.

Still hoping for better and brighter days :))).

“I guess some questions are better left unanswered.”

How I wish we had talked more and been more honest with ourselves. That one year of our relationship made me realize how lonely I truly am and how much I needed you. I really wanted us to grow old together, but as philosophers say, some things are meant to come to an end. Please forgive me for all my shortcomings and for the times I failed to truly understand you. Despite everything, I hope you are happy now. -jc

if your mother knew what you did to me, she would cry herself to sleep every night.

Hi Geloy, Im 14. I’m starting to worry about my future. As I get older the topics of college or future jobs become more prominent and it worries me. It worries me that I’ll be a disappointment. That I’ll grow up to become a failure. That highschool was my peak. I’m worried that I’ll be 30 and have no happiness in life or that I’ll disappoint my parents or be someone who is of no worth to my family. It worries me that I’ll grow up and I won’t accomplish all the goals I set out for myself. I know I’m only 14 but the future seems so close. Everyday I start to feel more like a failure and someone who won’t be anything in life. I’m just worried.

Gab, somewhere out here someone gets to see through your beautiful eyes. I miss you. I love you. Your loss has left a large gaping hole in my heart. I wish we had more time.

think everyone should go through cancer once in their life yep, i said it earlier while pouring my thoughts out to my boyfriend i had leukemia. four years of chemo and lately life has been so loud and chaotic that i caught myself thinking about those days again - being stuck in a hospital bed, waiting for my family to feed me, bathe me, take care of me. completely dependent on them and i know how selfish that sounds because back then, while i was going through cancer, the only thing on my plate was getting better. that was it. my family carried everything else for me. they were the ones fighting beside me in ways i probably still can’t fully understand now life is different. i have two jobs, i went back to college, i live alone, and i still go to monthly checkups. everything feels fast all the time and some days it gets heavy in a way i don’t really know how to explain so when i think about that hospital bed, i don’t miss the cancer itself. i miss the pause. the simplicity of only having one job: survive the day. no pressure to figure out the future. no pretending to have everything together i’ll always be grateful i made it through but surviving cancer doesn’t mean life suddenly becomes easier after. sometimes it just changes the kind of tired you carry

I'm scared of not realizing my full potential and just regret it for the rest of my life.

do not abandon yourself just to avoid being abandoned by others.

para lahat kay lola.

I can’t remember the last time I was happy

i’d promised myself not to, but sometimes i wish we’d never met at all. maybe then i wouldn’t be hurting as much as i am now.

My parents will never know how much their comments on my weight (that seemed harmless to them) affected me.

im very sorry for what i did to you there is no excuse, not even that i was just a kid even tho the childhood was very harsh on me, on us. i hope one day we ll be both open enough to have a talk about it and see what we ll do from there. i don t even know if you remember anything, but i do, and it s eating me up every single day

I think im pushing away everyone who cares about me and I don’t know how to stop

i wish i could be happy for you, but all i see in you is the person who ruined me.

My 3yrs ldr ex gf discarded me like a trash choosing someone who she cheated with over me. It traumatized me as i have done everything to forgive her for all bad things she did to me and still love her with my whole heart with genuine intentions and loyalty but still this all i get. I wish I never met her.

i wish i could hate him for what he did to me, but he’s the only dad i’ll ever know

maybe i’m easier to love from a distance.

I am scared of the person i might become if i were ever to cross paths with you again— my rage for you feels like a bottomless pit and the scary part? i hope it swallows me whole.

I'm 23 and I've been sexually abused since I was 15. I just ended a long-term relationship where I was a victim of domestic violence and I don't know what to do. I was raped and suffered physical, emotional and psychological violence, verbal and financial abuse for so long. I'm desperatly trying to breathe but it's so hard not to relapse. I fear I'll never stop thinking about what they did to me. It will haunt me forever.

I've always wanted a hug

I’ve been alone since my last girlfriend and I broke up more than 10 years ago. The people I have dated after her were just temporary people and no one wanted to stay. I want to be happy. I’m not saying anything to anyone but I’m scared to grow old alone.

i didn’t deserve the things i went through but i wish you would’ve told me that growing up. Because the child you neglected will always yearn for the love of a mother that she will never get and i hate you for that. you will never understand the pain you put me through, lucky for you, but i will always feel it even when i don’t want to. because my purpose on this planet wasn’t to “make you a mother” or “save your life,” my purpose is to live and i don’t even know if i can do that. i’ll never forgive you. love always, the daughter you wished you never had.

I wish I had more time with you Nanay. I wish I had more time to buy your medicine, sleep in your bed with you, buy you any dress u want in this world since I had the adult money na. I miss you so much. We miss you so much. We just wish we had more time…

“I wish you knew how much your mistakes hurt and still do to this day.”

I feel like the sun, but I'm burning too bright, too hard, and too fast.

i wanted you to tell me—and actually mean it—that you got us. that when i was breaking up with you and telling you how drained i was, you’d have said you can carry us out of it while i pick myself up.

Hey Yasmin, I really wished I had the courage and stayed too, as my life without you it’s like an eukaryotic cell without its mitochondria. Next life I’ll hold your hand when we’ll first meet at kindergarten and I’ll never leave you. You’ll always be my miracle and I root for you my love. Forever yours x

hello grief, my friend.

I pray that someday we both heal from the things that caused us pain. I’m sorry, Rieve. I truly loved you, and I know I hurt you in ways I never intended to. But there was never someone else. I never loved anyone the way I loved and cared for you — even until now. No other person ever took your place. But I also know I didn’t deserve to be treated that way. Love shouldn’t leave someone hurting this much. I loved you in the best way I knew how, even when it felt like you never really saw or appreciated it. I had so much respect, patience, and grace for you that even your flaws could never lessen the love I was willing to give. I kept adjusting, understanding, and holding on… but somewhere along the way, I started losing myself too. I know you’re hurting, but being hurt shouldn’t mean treating me like this. Love isn’t supposed to feel this painful. And even after everything, my love for you is still here. I just hope you heal from everything weighing on your heart. And if my presence only adds to your pain, then maybe leaving is the kindest thing I can do for you, just so you can finally be happy again. Maybe one day, I’ll also find the kind of love that feels gentle, safe, and appreciated. Until then, I’ll keep loving you quietly from afar and carry it in my heart until it no longer hurts this much.

i wanted you to tell me—and actually mean it—that you got us. that when i was breaking up with you and telling you how drained i was, you’d have said you can carry us out of it while i pick myself up.

i miss you sooooo much, even though you treat me like a stranger

You cannot do everything all at once. Do your goals one step at a time. It might take a while, but at least, there's a progress.

Hi geloy, My step brother and cousin raped me. No one knows besides my husband and sister. I haven’t told my mom because I’m afraid she’ll be dissatisfied in that information. All I want is her support. I’m afraid she’d rather sweep it under the rug than comfort her daughter.

It hurts.

dear mom, i used to over hear dad yelling at you over the phone because he felt like he had to force you to call me and check in. that made me feel so unwanted.

can't wait to see my son!! see u next month lil man.

i can’t move past the things my mom put me through because she will never give me an actual apology. it’s gotten so bad she tries to have a relationship with me but i just hate everything she does.

I have some many dreams, not only for myself but also for my family. nakakatakot na baka sa dami ng pangarap ko ay walang mangyari at mawala lang ang lahat :(

hanggang kailan ba ako magpapanggap na okay na ako?

You say that you are sorry and i am sure you are not. I hate you for what you did and even tho it's been a year now, i fear you everywhere and all the time.

i hate that i need to put up a facade that i am a bad person to appear strong because i used to experience bullying and hatred from people.

Im tired of all of this is wish everything will be OK :>>>

Dear Mom & Dad, I hope you feel what I felt whenever you poured all your anger onto me. :)

I hate that at my thirties I am healing my inner child, I feel rage for all the things that my family put trough to an amazing, inocent and beautiful soul, at a young age I experienced solitude, sadness and I craved love and hugs, I am learning to love myself, to be compassionate to myself and all that in order to raise my own daughter, I am being the mother I always wanted.

All this time, I just wanted to be truly happy. Is it really that hard?

You deserve friendships that don’t make you question your place

I hope you never did this to anyone else.